Friday, July 25

Tokyo Gazing

After I stayed in Shanghai for five days, my dancing team and I went to Japan. We only stayed for four days, and even though we didn't really dance there because of reasons, we still had fun going around Tokyo and Ariake.

Wednesday, July 23


1. Selamat Hari Anak Nasional! A big, warm, and fuzzy hug to all my fellow Indonesian kids and adolescents all around the world! Early this morning, my face was covered with mum's kisses because she was congratulating me on being a kid. Being A Kid. On Being A Kid, she asked me what I wanted, and then she stopped herself because she knows that I will want a lot of things. And to be honest, the only thing I want right now (if asked as a kid), is for the adults to bring back Oreo O's.

I'm serious you guys, Oreo O's was a huge part of my life. Throwback to when I wasn't allowed to buy them every month because one box costs like Rp. 70.000, so I bought them every three months. Every time we bought Oreo O's, my late sister and I would save it as much as possible because we didn't want it to end. The endless pleasure of having marshmallow and black biscuits stuck in our teeth, pressing the marshmallows for it to be as small and hard as it can be because it is more tasty when it hardens. So please, bring back Oreo O's if you really do care.

2. I decided to tell myself to decide what major I'm going to take in university this holiday. I'm searching the majors I'm interested at, and considering the things I might get in learning the subject. Right now, I have chose a few majors, which are: Marine Biology, Advertising, Dance & Performance, or Graphic Design. My mind is manipulating my choices and I can't really make up which major I would like. I took an online test on what career I should have when I grow up,:
Oh yay a diver!

3. I listened to two great playlists for the past three days.



Have a great night, lovers.

Monday, July 21

M&M Cookie Bars with Esther

I don't know if i'm the only one who names their oven, but yeah. I decided to call my new oven Esther, because it is the first name that came up in my head whilst writing this post. This morning I created breakfast using Esther by cracking an egg & turkey slices in a loaf pan and baking it for 10 minutes. It turned out okay. And then (as I have planned a few days before), I decided to bake M&M Cookie Bars as a first attempt before making them for my dear friends for Ied.

I got the recipe from Divas Can Cook (cause I'm a diva) (just kidding). The recipe is really good, but my cookie bars turn out too sweet & overcooked. It's because I'm a rookie baker. Whoops rookie mistake. I used palm sugar instead of brown sugar, which is probably what makes it too sweet. And I baked it for 30 minutes at 160 degrees C, which is probably too hot or too long. Also, the thickness of the bars are too thick, which makes it hard to bite. Now I'm confused on who are going to eat all the cookies /sigh/

The result of the cookie bars should be like this:

But it ended up like this:

Whoopsie Daisy

I'm going to have a month worth of holiday, and I'm going to be baking, cleaning up my room & learning how to drive. Have a great day, lovers.

Friday, July 18

86400 Seconds Well Spent


A month and a few weeks ago, my teacher told my friends and I to search for an opening dance, and we decided to do Lenggang Nyai. Since I know the routine, I decided to teach my friends. We practiced for two weeks in total if we mash all the practices. We were told that we would be dancing for the 30-ish visitors from 15 different countries. And then my teacher told me they were from CISV. And I was like 'OHHHHHHHHH ok'.

On Tuesday, after eating sahur, I stayed awake to take a quick shower, pray, and prepared for the dance. I did the basic make up, mum did the eyeshadow, and I did my hair. I loved my hair because I look like a ballerina.

Monday, July 14

I'm Still Here

Remember when I told you I have a cheesy blog of myself? i swear it's getting cheesier and cheesier. The unscheduled-but-probably-monthly-or-pretty-much-whenever-i-want-to mood board pictures are mostly taken from there, so if you guys need a little inspiration or mood booster, please pay my digital mood board a visit!

School is starting, but it ends in a week and we'll have a month of holiday! I am really happy! I would probably cook and bake during the holidays, also if I get accepted for the work I'm applying for, then I'll work (Bismillah!), and then there will be a lot of catch-ups to do with friends, and I cannot wait! I've always love Ied vibes because 1. Jakarta gets quiet 2. Less traffic 3. Family catch-ups 4. Food 5. Food 6. Food. The typical Ied food would be opor ayam with lontong, and I'm pretty sure I'll be eating opor in so many houses on the D day. But as I grow older, I want to decrease eating chicken (white meat) just because.

Here are a few things that made me happy for the past few weeks!

Thursday, July 10

Tanah Airku by Jan Jules

We recorded this a few weeks back while waiting for mum to say goodbye to her friends (which btw takes forever!). Julian sang this song for one of dad's movies called Tanah Surga Katanya a few years ago. This time, we're stepping up the game.

Wednesday, July 9

Not Any Younger

Am going to buy sparklers and fireworks for myself by the end of this month, just because

Rage, pain, hatred, guilt, naiveness, love, and lust have been binding with the hemoglobin in my veins for the past few months (maybe years). I realise it was time for me to have an 'outing' for me to let all these feelings out of my veins. I am lost in what I need to do for these feelings to flow out of my head, and then I remember what it felt like to scream. To scream is to let out all the pain, the anger, the guilt, the misery, and that is what I needed most. I just want to be out of pain for once, you feel me?

I miss going to the beach & I miss feeling this happy

Some people mature faster than others, and I feel like I did. I might seem silly, and spontaneous, but I am actually such a careful person. Only some teenagers mature rapidly, and those are the people that can actually compromise with the feelings that are flowing in our veins. She's not dealing with the same kind of teen angst I'm dealing with, but she's dealing with something else as well. We talk and listen to each other. At times, we would give each other tips and tricks, but most times we just listen to each other's nag & brag. Because what most people (especially adolescent) want is to be understood. I told her things I felt like I was writing in my diary (it contains a lot of nasty words, sick and eccentric thoughts), and she said she's OK listening to my complaints and thoughts. I am grateful to know someone two years younger than me, but almost as mature as I am.

I told her we should have a therapy from Life. Yes Life. Life capital L. I'm in a point in my adolescent life where I wish I didn't have any feelings. Because as I told you, feelings & hormones are two pieces of poop that ruins everything. Our therapy session would include hella tons of screaming, running, jumping, picture taking, and most likely, there will be ice cream (or any other sugar coated snacks we can come up with). I will also visit the theme park with my family after Ied, and I cannot wait for that day to come, because that day, I am allowed to scream as loud and as much as I want, and nobody's going to complain me for it.

I just wrote a post on my Word Press on: What are you most grateful for in life?. Check it out.